Ulh...

   I feel like a pig. My and my friend, F, were chillin' out and watching Say Yes To The Dress, and my mom brought us a bag of pita chips. F is skinny as hell, and even though everyone says I'm skinny, I feel like the f*cking potato. F ate maybe ten pita chips, whereas I ate around thirty.

   On another awful note, I didn't get accepted to one of the volleyball clubs I tried out for. I feel like $h!t. Not only am I fat, but I suck at volleyball. The club I'm trying out for next week is even more competitive.

Excuse me while I go cry.

 

-Uknown Athena

Crack

   Today was interesting, it had it's ups and downs. I guess the only thing I'll share today was in health class. Don't get me wrong, I love health class, and the teacher (she's WONDERFUL!), but today, I cracked a bit.

   Even though I've patched up the pieces of myself from my eating disorder a while ago, I couldn't help but feel my throat tighten and tear up when we got to the topic of eating disorders. Of course, I knew almost as much (if not equally) about eating disorders as my teacher, and I know I should ignore it, but then she said, "eating disorders never fully go away from the mind", I started crying a bit. Luckily, she didn't notice a thing.

   At lunch, I felt fat as f*ck from that (I have health right before lunch two out of the eight days in my school's cycle), so when I went to the local coffee shop to get hot cocoa, I ordered a small rather than a large, with skin milk, and no marshmallows or whipped cream. It tasted okay, but my sh!tty body image made it taste worse. The fact that I felt the need to order a more diet-y version of my favorite drink made me feel like sh!t.

On a brighter note, I only have maybe three to four hours of homework this weekend, then studying! Party! -____-

 

Stay Strong and Carry On xx,

Unknown Athena

Everyone Alive?

   Sorry I haven't posted in a bit. Because of the hurricane, I lost power and couldn't access the internet. Luckily we got our power back yesterday, but a majority of my town is without any power. No hot water, no electricity, no gas. Literally, my neighbor waited on line for over an hour to get gas. Now our town has none -___-.

   Also, I haven't had school all week because apparently, my high school's generator exploded. How and why, I have no clue. I never thought I'd say this, but, I actually really want to go to school! I'm so screwed for AP World and Chemistry!!

   My friend F is coming over tomorrow because she has no power. She came over on Halloween, where a good sixty little children dressed as ninjas and princesses and fruit came to trick or treat around my block, which normally gets no kids because we barely have any on my street. We went around the block and trick or treated. After a good ten years of trick or treating, we didn't even need to say, "Trick or treat!". I think my neighbors knew the drill.

   A lot of my other friends don't have power either, so I'm letting them come over and charge their electronics. Oh, and I have a social life (I know, IMPOSSIBLE!): I'm going to a party tonight! So pumped! I get to wear my ninja makeshift-costume once more!

Stay Safe!

-Unknown Athena

 

P.S. My brother took my bike, and I was gonna go biking through town to get some exercise. That little shit... He's gonna get hell from me!!